Dear Uncle

Dear Jerry,
Why if you have only done the things you have done to me for my own good,and because it is what i deserved,are you so concerned at the J's knowing every sordid detail? Why do you insist you are not a pedophile? Why do you say that because you only ever treated me in such a manner,this doesn't make you a bad person? Is it because thats what you truly believe,or is it that saying that makes you feel better about the Abuse and Torture you inflicted upon me all my life?
You remember nearly everything,even things that i had shut away and i guess in a way forgotten.The pleasure heard in your voice when you think you have reminded of something,is nothing but plain evil.When you bring something up only to be told (my mates)know about it,and still haven't turned their backs on me,it tears you up inside,doesn't it? You have always had such power over me,every time i have just about got my head above water.you have been there to drag me back down hoping that this time i will actually drown.Well i am sorry to disappoint you Jerry,but i am going to stay afloat.You could say the J's(my mates)are my arm bands,my lifeguards,my friends and my family all rolled into one,and nothing you do or say will ever ever alter that fact!!
Remember the incident with the dog?Thats right you do,well all those years i hated myself because i thought i had broken its leg when i kicked out at it while it was mauling my head,yet when i revealed all the dirty nasty details J very quickly made me doubt i could have broken it.A fully grown Alsatian could withstand a lot more than a kick from a young child.You laughed when i questioned you about it,how sick does that make you?I still have scars on my head,but you know that don't you,you often ask how the scabs are doing because you know i am down and you are winning when they are there.I sincerely hope you have enjoyed all the times you have won,because no matter what you do or say to me now,you will never again win.
You know i have written things down what you, and the rest of your peado ring have done to me,if only you knew how many people had actually seen that writing,i think you might die of fear.You know if you were ever tried for the Abuse,you would never leave prison alive,you might not even survive long enough to stand trial,thats how purely evil and sadistic you were and still try to be.The big difference now though Uncle Jerry,is i am no longer alone,no longer that terrified person,and more importantly i no longer believe any of it was my fault!!!!
So lastly i want to say,i am not a bad person,i have never hurt or abused a child,i have done everything in my power to protect my kids.To the point of staying perfectly silent while you raped and beat me,knowing they were upstairs asleep.So you see,i have survived,i will survive and i am a survivor!! You on the other hand was,is and always will be a dirty evil sadistic pedophile,who has to live with the knowledge of what you have done,all the while dying a slow painful death.When you finally croak it,will be the best day of my life,and believe me when i say i will most definitely be having a jar or two to celebrate