This wasn't the only time my dear Uncle had left me unconscious,many times as a child i would come round after yet another beating to find him sat staring at me,or that he had left yet had the decency to cover me up.About two nearly three years ago Uncle Jerry turned up with one of the old gang,they were waiting outside the back door and grabbed hold of me as soon as i stepped outside.Jerry punched me in the face,and his pal pushed me back in through the door.I was slightly dazed as you can imagine,i was only going into my own yard for gods sake.
I didn't understand why he had brought this animal back into my life,He was older and slimmer than when i was a child,but i recognised his smug look immediately and he still had the same smell.At the time i didn't know the pals name,but i soon learnt his actual name was James,and he was to become another tormentor.
They pushed me around a little,and every time one of them hit me i lashed out right back at them.Deep down i knew i stood no chance against two men,but i also knew i had to try.James headbutted me so hard i fell to the floor,the force of the impact brought tears to my eyes.The minute i hit the floor Jerry pounced,pinning me to the floor holding my arms down.James was tugging at my trousers,i kicked as hard as i could,but he knelt on my legs.Jerry was the first to have sex with me,while James made sure i couldn't scream.When Jerry was done,James then took his turn whilst Jerry kept me quiet.Once they had finished i stupidly thought they would just leave,but how wrong could i be.Jerry grabbed the hammer and forced it inside me,they were both laughing.I shouted and screamed at them to stop,begged them to leave me alone but as usual they totally ignored my pleas.They used a few more household items,then both had sex with me at the same time.Pain and shame tore through me.When they were both satisfied they stood at the back door to have a smoke.Grabbing my trousers i pulled them on as quick as i could,fear and rage mixed together i threw myself at Jerry knocking him clean over.Siezing my chance i kicked him in the head,James grabbed me and threw me against the wall,my head bounced off like a tennis ball.
Jerry was standing infront of me pure hatred in his eyes,i spat in his face in defiance i guess.He grabbed me by the throat and punched me several times in the face,i slid down the wall and James kicked me in the stomach so hard i doubled over in pain.He pulled me up by the hair and Uncle Jerry kneed me between the legs before pushing me face first into the wall.Instinct and a need to survive kicked in,and i fought back to the best of my ability.I manage to get a couple of punches in,but they were just too strong i couldn't beat them.Punches and kicks reigned down on me as i lay on the floor,i tried to crawl away but they dragged me back,my face felt like it was been ripped apart as they dragged me across the broken concrete.The last thing i saw was James boot infront of my face.
I could hear a voice in the distance"mum,mum are you in?" Oh no my daughter was here,i have to get up,i have to be ok was all i could think of.Crawling to the wall i began to pull myself up,but not quiet quick enough,"oh my god what the hell has happened" my daughter asked helping me up.Telling her i must have tripped over the broken concrete and knocked myself out,i insisted it wasn't nearly as bad as it looked.To say she was concerned is an understatement,she wanted to call an ambulance or a dr,but i wasn't having any of it,but i did agree i would go get checked out by my own gp if i didnt feel right the next day.Obviousely i felt far from ok,but i told every one it was only a fall and i was fine.My face was a complete mess,the skin was scraped off all down one side,my nose was swollen to nearly twice the size,my eyes were bruised and bloodshot.My wrist was swollen and grazed,and my stomach and between my legs were black.It took nearly three weeks for those injuries to heal,but a lot longer for the mental scars to heal.